The Rat Poems

I could take it all back, you know,
And vow and vow it wasn’t so.
I could proclaim it’d all been a lie,
And then I wouldn’t want to die.
You could kiss away my tears,
And we could laugh of this in later years.
I’d sell my soul to live again,
Through that moment that brought this end.
I’d count to ten and rethink the phrase,
Which exiled me to this lonely place.
If I could but change time, my dear,
I’d reverse that day and keep you here.
Yet this wouldn’t change the simple fact,
That given that chance you didn’t act.
You told me my love wasn’t worth the fight,
You must prefer to sleep alone at night.
And so I did the last thing I ever wanted to do,
And wonder how long until those words would have been said by you.

I closed my heart to the dark,
And prayed that you’d be light,
But after the death of the initial spark,
All we did was fight.
It can’t be helped, we both were blind,
You never wanted me,
For she was always on your mind,
And I refused to see.
I thought you loved me, maybe once,
There is no way of knowing,
And I’ve again played love’s dunce,
Because I couldn’t stop you going.
I was happy, just last week,
How quickly things go sour,
And I’m so wretched, I can barely speak,
I’d kill for one last hour.

I tried to give you all my love.
I tried to make it work,
But you could only push and shove,
And prove you were a jerk.
I gave my heart, proud and free,
And hoped that you would want it.
But our love just couldn’t be,
And now you’ve left me haunted.
I tried and tried, I tried my best,
But to you it didn’t matter,
And now you’re gone, at my request,
But it’s my heart that’s shattered.